This is what I wanted to do, once upon a time before kids. In high school, I had dreams of being a nuclear engineer for Fermilab. Hunting for the God Particle (Higgs boson) by day and writing novels at night. It's not so different now. I spend my days hunting for the cheerios that find their way down my shirt and I write bland blog entries at night. But they're whole grain cheerios, so it's not near as pathetic as it sounds.
And now, this baby has three times as much energy as Fermilab's accelerator.
I have a signed copy of The God Particle and even had a small crush on Lederman back in high school even though he's old enough to be my grandpa.
Have you seen what happens when protons collide? It's amazing and beautiful.
"These are the known unknowns, but there are unknown unknowns out there which could make us radically revise our view of how the universe works," Bertolucci said.
"There are still boundless possibilities for complete surprises." -Leon Lederman
"The real goal of physics is to come up with an equation that can explain the universe but still be small enough to fit on a T-shirt." - Leon Lederman
So if I were colliding particles in Illinois today, I would be torn up inside; Rejoicing because someone came so close, yet dejected because their toy blew my toy out of the water.
I am not the least bit regretful of the paths I didn't take.
What career could I have chosen that could beat this?
I get to stay home and raise curious, creative children.
Loving and laughing with them.
Teaching them and learning from them.